Coffee enema...day 3

 We are at it again :) Day 3 of the coffee enema.

  I took in 32 ounces of coffee today, backwards..... It was fine. I waited until after my first b.m. (bowel movement) So, I was able to retain the coffee in my bowel for at least 15 minutes.  When I finally released the coffee. It wasn't a big deal. However, as the day went on I have felt a bit foggier than usual.
It's strange. Like, I can think more clearly but the ability to get my mouth to convey what my brain is thinking is somehow interrupted and I feel misunderstood.  Maybe it's just because of the "jump start" to my liver. You know because that's what the coffee does, it boosts my livers ability to detox. And now perhaps I have more toxins or "stuff" in my system than usual. Other than that, I feel fine.

  My ear is still clogged or hollow sounding. But I do have a spot on my right side from my 1st c-section that has been painful for the last 5 yrs. It has been feeling a little less painful to the touch. And yes, I did talk to my doctor about the pain. He just says, " it will go away" and that, "You're not as young as you used to be." Which I believe is code for I don't know, so I am going to chalk it up to your age.

Either way, I will be doing another coffee enema before bed and once again tomorrow morning. I'll let you know how else it goes!

xoxo, Leilani

How to take your coffee, backwards. ;)

Our Colon

LOL! Oh, I had to title it that way. In reality the whole idea can be so foreign to some, as well as offensive to others, we've got to make it as light as possible!

  I have always known there were benefits to enema's and although one of my greatest mentor's Dr. Christopher is not a fan of enema's. I have found too much evidence accrediting the benefits of health to enemas to not be an advocate.

Perhaps we need to understand a little about the bowel system. After all, I know I wasn't really listening in health class in High School. I was far more concerned about boys, the weekend, dancing, and NOT talking about something as embarrassing as my body! HELLO!? Oh, to be a kid again. Not to mention no one at home taught me. I had to learn on my own. And it was well worth it. So in case you don't know enough about your amazing body, here's a peek inside about your colon. The colon is the light tannish pink diagram that looks like a fat snake. It connects to the "yellow" part of the above pic. Which is our small intestines. The colon starts on the lower part of the right side of the abdomen goes up or "ascends" towards the ribcage, extends across or "transverse"s to the left side of the body and then goes down or "descends". Finally, we reach the Anus, where we evacuate.
Yes, I know there are other twists, turns, and loops. Hence why the diagrams are here.

 I am NOT a doctor. If you have any health conditions or illnesses I suggest you see a doctor. This is only an account of mine own experience.

Whew, now that that's out of the way. Let me tell you what I did and why I did it.
Things I used: 1. Enema bag 2. Old towel.
3. Coconut oil or olive oil.
4. A timer.
I got an enema bag at my local drug store.
 (It came in a box like this.)

1. Purchased an enema bag.

2. I took the bag home a cleaned all the parts with warm soapy water and rinsed it well.
3. I assembled the hose with the appropriate nozzle. (The narrow enema nozzle)
4. I made a pot of organic coffee, with bleach free filters. (The pint is to get gunk out NOT put it in.)
5.I let the coffee cool to comfortable temperature. (DO NOT USE HOT!)
6. I filled the enema bag with coffee. (If it's too hot to touch, IT'S TOO HOT for your butt!)
7. I attached hose to bag.
8. I then release clamp on hose to allow any air to escape.
9. I pinch clamp on hose once fluid comes out of the nozzle.
10. I hang bag about 3 feet above where my bum will be. (I hang it on my shower head)
11. I laid an old towel down on the bathroom floor. ( It sometimes leaks...the coffee)
12. I lie down on my left side. (No pants)
13. I use coconut oil or olive oil to lubricate the nozzle.
14. I GENTLY insert nozzle in bum. (If I feel pain I STOP! And try again.)
15. I release clamp slowly and let the coffee flow.
16. Stay here as long as you can! (15 minutes is what's best, so I've read.)
17. When I feel the urge, I SIT ON THE TOILET! (My body knows how to do this part.)

And that's it really. Once I'm done I clean my enema bag and accessories thoroughly and let them hang dry in the shower.

A few things; I always take the coffee in slower at first to let my body try to absorb it, rather than rushing it in and making it want to push it out.
I also, allow myself to resist the first few "urges". If I sit and "hold it" the feeling usually goes away. IF the feeling persists and I GOTTA GO, I do!
Paying attention to and honoring your body is one of the quickest ways to begin feeling better :)
xoxoxo andGoodluck if you take your coffee backwards ;)
Leilani

Coffee enema... take 2?

So, as promised, I am keeping you updated with what I am experiencing.

Right now, It’s been about an hour since my first introduction to a coffee enema. I have cooling sensations in different parts of my body. Not, cold, cooling. I feel it in my left calf, my lower back. Behind my left ear and a little bit of dry throat, not so much like I am thirsty rather that I have sticky mucus trying to move out and I need a good cough as well as a drink. My lips feel a bit parched yet not dry. I don’t know if this is normal. But otherwise, I feel fine. And if we get more of the excessive mucus out of my body, I’ll be happy!

I’ve also been taking BF&C. It’s my homemade remedy from Dr. Christophers. I began that about 4 days ago. I steep approximately 4 TBS. in a quart of water. Then I sip on it throughout the day. The initial motivator was to darken my grays to their natural raven color. The effect was I began feeling less hungry, more energized, and just better. BUT I had a lot of mucus start moving. I was blowing my nose constantly and coughing up mucus. My body was definitely trying to cleanse. Which brings me to the coffee enema. I needed to cleanse my bowels to better assist my body in its own efforts to purge and cleanse.

The dry throat is fading. However, I will have a drink of water anyway. My ear….is, not AS plugged but still not functioning.
I do have a very mild bit of cramping in my transverse colon on my right side. I feel just a tad queasy. However, It was expected to correct my poop pattern....or peristalsis.

And a long time ago I had an iridologist tell me that the “snap, crackle, pop” sound in the back of my neck was parasites! EWE!!! Well, guess who’s “snap, crackle, popping?” Yup, I think, WE ARE STIRRING UP SOME OLD YUCKY STUFF!

 Hopefully, though it’ll fade away, suggesting the parasites are being purged and I will begin feeling, even more, vitality! Because apparently, parasites and candida overgrowth can both cause you to feel sluggish, even lethargic.
Anyway, 
Here are 10 Reasons on Why You Should Try A Coffee Enema:  
According to AmandaBrocket @ Mind Body Green

1. Reduces levels of toxicity by up to 600%.  
2. Cleans and heals the colon, improving peristalsis. 
3. Increases energy levels, improves mental clarity and mood.
4. Helps with depression, bad moods, sluggishness. 
5. Helps eliminate parasites and candida. Improves digestion, bile flow, eases bloating. 
6. Detoxifies the liver and helps repair the liver. 
7. Can help heal chronic health conditions (along with following a mainly raw plant based diet). 
8. Helps ease "die-off" or detox reactions during periods of fasting or juice fasting, cleansing or healing.
9. Used regularly in the Gerson Institute treatment protocol for healing cancer patients naturally

Keeping you posted,

Xoxo

Leilani

Coffee in my....WHAT?!

Obviously Living the Dream would also include Feeling Good!
So, here's what I am up to!

 I just tried a coffee enema for the first time.

Was it ….weird? I mean I had heard that coffee makes you poop. But now I am putting it directly in the pooper!

  Well, how do I feel? Okay. No cramping, nausea, or uncomfortableness. Actually..right now at this moment, I am feeling an itching sensation in my right ear. Not terrible but definitely there. It lasted about 3-5 seconds and I had a thought, “Something is dying”…..What?  Well, I have had a plugged ear for almost 2 weeks now. It oozes bloody mucus at times, sounds like I am underwater ALL the time, and occasionally is painful. Sounds fun, right? NO! Lol! ! I know It doesn’t. However, you see I have had ear issues in my right ear off and on for the last 7 years. I had also had severe ear infections as a baby until they put tubes in, then it relieved the problem.

However, over the last 7 years I have dealt with leakage, discharge, blood, pain, and the fear that “Other people could see the grossness oozing from my ear.” And although I do believe that everything that physically manifests has a spiritual/emotional origin. Sometimes clearing out and moving the physical, releases the emotional and vice-a-versa.

With that said, guess what else I read in the amazing world of the internet or world wide web. That coffee enemas help to rid the body of candida! WHAT? I have suspected I have had a candida problem for some time and have tried MANY different methods to get it under control. Only to have it come back. At least, the symptoms suggest its back. I’ve never been diagnosed, but you know, sometimes you just know and you have to trust yourself.

I’ve done things like the "spit test". If you don’t know what the spit test is, click on the link and it'll take you there.

Anyway, I also would have an itching sensation in my groin….maybe that’s TMI but for heaven's sake we are talking about shooting coffee up our bums, so let's get over formalities! :)

I have discoloration of skin between my boobs. A sign of fungus growth and we know candida is a yeast and yeast is a fungus. For lay-mans sake, let's just start putting 2 and 2 together. I’m not a doctor and I won’t pretend to be one. BUT I am a human who can read, do research, and have been blessed with some intuition. In fact, that's what we all are! We don’t need people to tell us what we already know just because they have a degree. I am thankful for them, but I am also thankful for a sound mind, discernment, and the ability to think. Whew. That almost sounds like a sermon! Lol!

So as for my ear, it’s itching on and off as I type. I believe it has to do with Candida overgrowth in my body.  I also  wonder how many parasites I have in my body, which coffee enemas also help rid the body of! After all,I have 2 dogs and a cat. I can only imagine it's a mere  matter of time before I contract them if I am not already exposed from either the animals, eating out, traveling, or just everyday life. Having parasites doesn’t mean you're dirty, it means you have an organic body that requires maintenance and you need to get educated how to maintain this amazing organic machine!

So, start with your poop! Eating is fun, eating is great. I derive great pleasure from eating, cooking, preparing, and the overall dining experience. However, all that food has to go somewhere…. And like Shrek said, “Better out than in.”

Let’s get to colon cleaning with coffee and see what it brings.

I’ll keep you posted on what else I experience. And I plan to be aggressive in my approach because quite frankly after 9 babies…. I think I need a tune-up!

Xoxo,

Leilani

Quit thinking of only you!

 Funny thing, Life. In the attempt to "find" yourself you may just lose yourself.
  Before I started down the path of self discovery, I was pretty happy. I felt like everything in my life needed an exclamation point because i was so darned passionate.
I focused on my family, my home, my neighbors, dinner, the garden and what not. Then the darndest thing happened. Someone suggested that I needed to take more "me" time. They began to suggest that I wasn't truly happy because "I" was SO focused on others and was putting myself last. Then I was seeing images of women who were exhausted and burnt out.
It was crazy! Because in all honesty the notion never crossed my mind that I was burnt out.
Yeah, I had the occasional yelling fit. Which I always apologized for...and I apologized for it because that is what I would expect my kids to do, take responsibility for the way they chose to act.

  And then all was well and in those moments, I would look within to determine what was really going on to make me lash out and scream.
 Usually it was something like I felt unappreciated or neglected. To remedy this I would remember to start my day with a prayer asking God to be with me, to help me...I even remember I used to ask that I "would have more love for my fellow man". And yes that is how I said it, "my fellow man". Crazy thing is, I did! I loved everyone SO much! I also, would ask that, " I be quick to forgive and slow to anger." And you know what, it worked! I don't remember having to remind myself all day, I remember just one day it seemed I didn't get angry. And when something needed to be addressed it was in a calm, but matter of fact kind of way. It wasn't about negotiating it was about being. Being honest with yourself, with others, with life.

  Today I am sitting here remembering just how blissful life was and just how many people would say to me that they wanted to know what I did and how so they to could be so happy. Remember I am a mom of, 9 kids. Being complimented on how calm, happy, and young you look don't always seem to go hand in hand with a house full of kids.

And then there was the time we had a new visitor to the house. When Sara came over for the first time. She said, " I can't believe how calm it is." Then later she confessed that she expected my home to have been a, "wild wreck and a mad house with kids everywhere! But it wasn't, it's calm and clean...."
  Point I am making is that in the last few months I have greyed more, had NO compliments, and seem to be unable to maintain my home.
   SO, I am going back to the old ways of how I did things. Rather than spending all day on FaceBook, because I am lonely and miss my friends. Or "journaling". Or listening to conference calls trying to learn how to, "Get what I want."
I will get up earlier than my kids, 15 minutes is enough. I will pray and ask for life to be joy-full. I will trust that God will do the rest. "ask and ye shall receive." I will take time to exercise. I have a 9 minute sprint thing I do. I will play WITH my kids! They can be my friends and right now I am their favorite person, unless I ruin it.
 And in reality, they are the only relationship that I will really be concerned with when I am laying in my death bed! So I will prepare for the inevitable today. Building a relationship so when I am dying we share LOVE and not REGRET.

 So when people tell you and advise you that, "You gotta take care of you!" Take a GOOD HARD LOOK at THEIR life. Are they really living the life you want? Do they REALLY have the relationships you long for? And the things they are suggesting....will it REALLY serve you in the long run? Are they single advising you on marriage? Are they childless advising on you on child rearing? Are they clueless pretending they have a clue?

 I am a mom of 9 and what I know is this.....Just this past Valentine's I bought 11 plastic cups with straws for my family, myself included. I stuffed them with V-Day candy and planned to have one for each of us. Unexpectedly my niece was with us on Valentine's morning.
  And guess what i did with my cup? Yup, you guessed it, I gave her mine! Do I feel cheated? Uncared for? Jilted? Did I put myself last? The answer, a resounding NO! I am a "big girl" and am plenty capable of gong back to the store and picking out a new cup for myself! I even have the capacity to buy candy and stuff the cup if it really matters to me. And you know what I did! Buy the cup that is, the candy didn't really matter to me.
BUT what did matter to me? That my niece felt included, thought of, loved. I didn't feed her some lame excuse as to why I didn't have a cup for her. I took response-ability and gave her mine. Its not putting myself last, it's actually putting myself first. I did the thing that I could live with! 
I prioritized a child over "things". I lead by example for my kids to care for each other. Hopefully, that we, people,  all matter. When I am too focused on me, I miss out on the we.
So, if your feeling down...stop thinking about "me" get into the "we" of life and it will get better!

Love you!
 

A day in the life

Not much of what's been going on in my life is up to date. In fact I have been pretty MIA. As a result I will be catching you up in snippets with as much detail and applicable suggestions as possible.

  Today Rob and I were chillaxin' in our bedroom with the newest member of our family, Luna Fae. She's 2 months old now! Time has just flown by, and even though I know this is going to happen it still surprises me just how fast it goes.
When I was a kid my dad would say, "There's nothing swifter than the years. " I had no idea what he meant and pretty much figured he didn't either. Yet now as a mom of 9, I get it! Days can seem to drag and then the next thing you know time has elapsed and your little people are no longer "little" now they're big, with opinions and ideas and thoughts of their own!
   And the other little people that are in the house seem to be growing even faster and slower at the same time! I mean I justify my 3 yr olds immature behavior to my 17 yr old because, "he's only 3!" And at the same time, my goodness! When did he turn 4? And why are his legs so long and how did I miss this transformation? Then looking at the 17 yr old I realize a lot more time has elapsed than I had initially considered and if I'm not careful could slide down the slippery slope of nostalgia and find myself crying over things I did, or didn't, do.
  Whew!! Being a parent can be a lot of work even when nothings going on!
However, as we all know there is ALWAYS something going on. No matter how minute it may appear something is happening and ultimately leading up to the NEXT something.

Today, Robert, my oldest who is turning 20 this year. Comes into my room, remember Rob and I were chillaxin' with the baby... Yeah, that's how it goes as a parent all over the place and nowhere at the same time. Anyway, Robert comes in and says we need to help his sister, Ke'A who is just 2 yrs younger than him, better deal with the kids. Following his entrance and suggestion enters Chewy, our 3 soon to be 4 yr old. He's crying. But not the I'm hurt physically cry, although I do note that he has 2 bright red scratches on his arm going from his shoulder to his elbow. I ask him what's the matter and he replies that Ke'A my 17 yr old won't give him the remote (for the xbox). Just then my Ke'A enters to defend her actions. In my head I'm in disbelief and annoyance that his injuries are a result of her actions.  I have silent prayer in my heart to handle this fairly because I already just want yo jump to Chewy's defense!
So the questioning begins. First I ask tKe'A o tell her version, and it better be good because I'm am not happy. She proceeds to tell me that she had to intervene because he, Chewy,  had bit Arianna! Hold. There is more here than just a he say she say. I call Arianna into the room. Obviously I need more information. Arianna comes in, "what happened?" I ask. I can feel I'm maintaining an unbiased  approach, thank goodness I prayed for intervention ;) .  She proceeds to tell me that she was trying to help Chewy. He was playing Minecraft. and wanted her to move him to the next level.
  Anyway, I'm listening and then turn  and ask iChewy f this is what happened. He agrees then adds that she wouldn't give him the remote. He's not crying anymore. When we have "these" mom-ents everyone is required to let the other speak, it's my job to listen and insure they all get a chance to speak and no one runs over anyone else...... We all know how easily that can happen.  Anyway , the more people speak the more the "remote" comes up. I ask  Chewy if he's mad  about the scratches or the remote? He says "the remote". Ok this has just changed again my son isn't even mad that my 17 yr old scratches him he's just upset about the remote?
It would be so easy to just throw it out at this point, insist they all apologize, then send everyone to their rooms. Because really I don't want to play referee! But I do want them to understand each other. I do want them to cherish each other, in the long run. And I do want them to be able to resolve their own issues , justly.  So, I'll see it through to the end.
  Once again I clarify ; Chewy your  upset that  Ke'A took the remote? Yes.
You bit Arianna because she wouldn't give you back the remote? Yes.
Ke'A you scratched Chewy because he scratched you after you took the remote from him because he bit Arianna? Yes.
Arianna, chewy bit you because he wanted the remote back? She stares at me without saying a word. But her lips begin to twist as I wait for an answer. I ask the same question in a different format. Did Chewy ask for the remote back and you wouldn't give it to him? Her lips begin to twist more. I finally ask if chewy had asked her to help him and then asked for the remote back and she wouldn't give it to him? Her eyes now are pleading as she bites her lip. I state that I'm not mad but I do need to understand. She meekly says yes.
Ok, so Chewy was playing Minecraft and needed help. He asked you Arianna to help him. You did. Then he wanted the remote back and you didn't give it to him so he bit you. Ke'A you heard Arianna crying and hot angry with Chewy because he bit Arianna in his frustration Chewy scratched you so you scratched him back all because he wanted the remote back that was rightfully his in the first place.
Ke'A realizes her error. I now have to explain to my 3 yr old I understand you were upset but that does not make it ok to hurt other peoples bodies.
I tell Chewy, "you need to apologize for hurting your sisters bodies. That is not ok." I turn towards Arianna and tell her, "you need to apologize to your brother for not giving the remote back when he asked for it. He asked you for your help. Not for you to take over. Can you see why he became upset?" She says she does and they hug and apologize. I ask Ke'A if she understands why Chewy is upset. She says yes and I ask her why? She replies, " because I jumped to conclusions." I remind her that there is always more to every story than what we can see.
She apologizes for intervening without knowing the whole story.
I do let chewy know that the xbox will be turned off for awhile because of the way they chose to treat each other. This doesn't stop him from coming back and asking if he can play 5 minutes later. The answer is still no. He's not happy about it but that's not my problem.
My problem is my children were being unkind to each other. I had to help them put things into perspective. I want them to prioritize what matters!
 Things come and things go but people, people have value!!

No mascara today

My heart is hurting.(period)

It’s been about 6 months since my eldest son began dating his almost not girlfriend.

This morning at breakfast my daughter Arianna told us that her cousin Saione was asking if Robert the oldest son, loved (name omitted). My daughter replied that they were boyfriend and girlfriend. I said, “Yeah, they love each other.”

Tonight my son told me that he and his girlfriend are taking “space”.

I am sad. My heart is hurting. I wasn’t prepared to feel the break up as well. I mean, I guess I knew I might, but still, I was not prepared. To feel the ache, the tightness of chest, constriction of my throat, and finally the tears. Happy New Year huh. It’s the first day of 2016 and last night's resolution brought them to resolve to take “space”. But anyone who’s been in a relationship knows what that means. It means, there is nothing to complain about, we love each other, even like each other, it’s just not working, and we don’t know why.

We don’t want to break up, so we’ll call it “space”. When we both know it’s the end.

She’s been staying at our house for the last few months, after the place she was staying at had the owners return from their travels. But now, she’s leaving in more ways than one.

And unexpectedly, I am hurting.

 Do I cry? And what am I crying for? I guess this is where you just allow yourself to feel the feelings that want to be present. I wont own them for long, it will pass, but right now, in this moment, I am going to refrain from sobbing, but allow the tears to flow.

Thank goodness I’m not wearing mascara.

How to get your kids to do their chores!

What's next, 2016?

   With the New Year in full swing. What will 2016 bring?

My resolutions are not yet...solidified. I mean I think I know what I want but, who really knows until you have it? Right? Right. 

 Anyway, last year I feel like I lost myself a little bit. Between the hormones, adjusting to post baby, breastfeeding, having now, NINE kids, and dealing with a bipolar landlady who wouldn't fix the flooded basement till I took legal action...... I lost my, me.

  So, my resolution for this year is to simply regain, me. Not a perfect body, but my "blue print" body. What "I" really look like. Not a perfect home, but one that I enjoy. One, "I" like to come home to.  Not a perfect marriage by society standards. Rather a marriage that "I" find fun and engaging. 

  Life has a funny way of being a lot like the birthing process, with contractions and expansions. 

Last year, I contracted. And thank goodness for it!! Although, while I was in the contraction, it JUST HURT! So here we are a New year, new moment, and an option to feel the expansion. Ahhhhhhh, breathe it in. 

  I do realize however the contraction of last year didn't have to make me lose me, that was mostly because I was fighting it. You know like when you're in labor and you feel the pain and rather than breathing through it knowing it will end.  You tighten, resist, even scream, and yell about it.  All while making the pain more intense. To the degree that you're begging to be drugged or somehow 'Just be done." At least that was my case. 

     So, here we are. In my tantrum I lost "me". 

So, this year I will take the time to consider what it is I really want from my experience for 2016. Who do I want to show up as, who is my priority (believe it or not, it HAS TO be me. If my cup is empty i have nothing to give), and finally

HOW WILL I BEHAVE IN THE CONTRACTION?

So breathe my friend! Whatever you are going through, whatever you are wanting, whatever you think you can't handle, whatever you think you are desiring..... It's just on the other side of what you BELIEVE.

 Believe that you can get through it, and you will. Believe that you can have what you want, and you can. Believe that you can handle it. Believe that if you desire it, it is meant for you.

 Aftereall who is the creator of all good things? And if it makes you feel good and causes no harm to anyone else, physically.  "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, (James 1:17)

Believing, 

Leilani :)