Bessie may be burnt but I am feeling it now! Initially, I was worried about the boy's who had chosen to act poorly. I was concerned about how this was going to affect them long term. If they had entered adulthood and this act would haunt them for the rest of their lives! Well, they are juveniles.
Now, I am experiencing a new set of emotions. My compassion isn't gone. However, is is now properly reflecting not only for them but for my family's well fare as well!!
My husband is always telling me how naive I am. But being I wasn't a saint as a kid I couldn't fathom what he meant. I was certain these kids only had a moment of poor judgement. That is until these random older ladies parked there car in my driveway. older meaning 50-60 ish.
My daughter said she saw 2 cars pull into the driveway, a white sedan and the black pick up you see in the pic.
They were there for a bit. When she came around the house again. The white sedan was gone and the black pick up was still there! This happened around 1pm. Around 6:30 pm. I was putting the sprinklers on when I noticed the pick up. We spend most of our time out back. We have a 2nd driveway there that we use. Anyway, When i see the truck my first thought is WTH!? I call my landlady to ask if it was her's, anything's possible, right? It's not she is actually a bit shocked that it's there. She tells me to have it towed. But I am a softy and want to give these people a chance to reclaim it. Maybe it's just a mix-up, right?
The next morning I awaken and realize the pick-up is still out there. WTF!? Now I am becoming annoyed.
I wait a few hrs. it's about 10 am now. The truck is still there. My annoyance is growing, I realize their bad decision ISN'T my fault or problem! In fact if for any random reason I had to park in someones driveway I would at least communicate with them before leaving it for almost 24 hours!!
I begin thinking or considering would be a more accurate term, everything we've been going through and experiencing. The walks to the store because the van is inoperable. The inability to go ANYWHERE as a family because we have no means of transportation. The fact that I wanted to take the family hiking and then am suddenly jolted into the reality that I CAN'T! The truth that even though it is sweltering outside right now in a few months it will be winter. And that if I don't somehow have our Bessie replaced how do I expect to get to the hospital to deliver my baby? Not to mention, what if we had an emergency? What would we do? Run to the neighbors until we found someone who could drop everything they're doing to play chauffeur?Why? Because some little poo-poo- butt wanted to have a few thrills and throw fireworks into someone elses vehicle?
People have been so generous offering rides but how long can that last? They have their own families, they're supposed to just sit around with me while I do my thing? Or even if they left and came back that's still cutting inconveniently into their day. We can't attend any functions. I spend more on groceries because the store that is within walking distance is more expansive then where I usually go. I can't buy in bulk and forget buying anything from the refrigerated or freezer aisles, they'd melt on the way home!
Suddenly, I understand what my husband means about me being naive! I never dreamed people could actually be mean for the sake of, BEING MEAN! It never dawned on me that someone would actually have ill intent. It was beyond my conception that another person could care so little for the well being of another!
This car burning thing has really done a number on my family, but until these ladies randomly parked there car in my driveway without so much as a sign of remorse. I couldn't see it! I couldn't or wouldn't allow myself to see the ugly side of people. But, you know what seeing their ugliness has made me appreciate the beauty in others. perhaps I was seeing that skewed as well. Perhaps I never could truly appreciate the good in people because I couldn't see the ugly that COULD exist.
So for that I am grateful! For those who choose to be good, kind hearted, beautiful people, THANK YOU!!!
It is a choice, everything in life is. I choose to no longer hide my head in the sand pretending everything is "happy". I choose now to see it for what it is, let others take full response-ability for their actions and and have as much compassion for my situation as I have for another. Not feeling sorry for myself, yet feeling justice is deserved.
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